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Not even a security enabled wifi signal to be found anywhere. I am certainly suffering the effects today of technology or lack thereof. Drove through the mountains from kelowna to grand forks with Dad and had essentially "no signal" the entire way. Laying here now reflecting on this makes me think that perhaps I should appreciate and revel in the fact that I'm completely alone out here and tough to reach. I'm just going through a bit of ontario home sickness. I have completed leg one - I made it to grand forks. Holy shit!!! Next things on my list, not exactly in this order: get a job(s), join the aquatic centre, go to local bridge/crib/euchre/poker games, join grand forks choral society again and pick up some reeds and sheet music for my clarinet! Man all these things make me sound unbelievable cool. That ones for you Jesse. I also want to link up with a few special people (sister Olivia, friends al/matt/Kim). These things should all get me in the groo...

I said goodbye to Andrew today. I knew this would be the hardest off all of the goodbyes, but you can't fully prepare for the moments. He is such a special man. Over the past weeks I've been trying to prepare myself for this day in the hopes of making it less painful and more matter of fact. But of course, it's near impossible to be matter of fact about leaving a loved one. I wrote him a letter a few weeks ago telling him how great he is and trying to give myself closure and to ease the pain of our final goodbye. I suppose it helped over the past few weeks but had no effect today. Today I felt heart ache. Heart break. The kind of feeling you only feel when you are losing someone close to your heart. I don't know if I've ever felt the feeling before, but I made mental note of it in the hopes of never forgetting something so precious. The best way I can describe it is that it feels like a bird is in your chest trying to open and spread it's wings but...