A Culmination of Things
I bought a diary today. I've just sat down and started writing in it, planning my next 90 days, and I finally had some inspiration to blog again. How great!!
I've been going through a really transformative period (lots of ups and downs!) the last couple years, and I feel like it's finally all starting to come together. It's hard to explain the shift from feeling uncertain, unsatisfied, and unsure, to being confident, secure and certain, but when it happens, you feel it. You recognize the good things in your life and focus more on those, rather than the things that upset you. I feel more at peace. I have been taking a step back almost daily and reflecting on how far I've come, and feel like my hard work is finally paying off. Buying my unit a month ago seemed like such a necessity and logical decision, that I don't think I give myself enough credit for what a milestone it was. I've had a few milestones this year, and hope to hit a few more next year. It's amazing how things come together with a little hard work, good intentions and a clear path.
It's hard for me to describe how it feels to finally have my own space and be on my own. I realized after just a few weeks of being in my unit, how perfectly happy and content I am here by myself. This is such a revelation for me because I have always wanted a man to chum around with, be my partner, enjoy life together. But it seems, I can do that within myself now (and with Benny!).
I set a goal a year ago when I first started in my current role of Car Care Specialist at Irelands, of being #1 in Queensland. After 11mths I achieved that goal. I set a goal earlier this year to buy a real, genuine, new Louis Vuitton handbag, and set the bag as a reward. I picked the date to purchase, put money aside every week, and bought the handbag in June. There was a large outlay in money, however the satisfaction I get out of this bag everyday is completely worth it. The bag (Soffi) signifies financial freedom, class, self worth, and demonstrates how far I've come. I never thought I'd buy a Louis Vuitton bag even though it's been on my wish list for years. Buying that bag was a turning point for me in my life. It has shown me what I can achieve.
A year ago, I went to one of my colleagues and mentors looking for guidance in choosing the right path, and searching for answers to mend my discontented heart. I didn't understand why I couldn't just get on and deal with life. Everything was perfectly fine, but I wasn't content. I so desperately wanted to be content. I was also worried about my retirement, setting myself up for the future. Buying a house, having money in the bank, etc. He helped me put together a weekly budget that I still use every week, and showed me that I could easily save up enough for a deposit in a year to buy a house. The concept seemed so foreign to me - owning property in Australia, holy shit! I wavered, went back and forth, but eventually by April this year I knew I had to get my own place - either to rent or buy. I scoured the market, checking every rental property and home for sale for months, till the perfect unit came available - and a little less than I was looking to spend! 10 months after making that budget, I had signed the contract to my new unit. Buying a home is not for the faint of heart - it was a very stressful experience. However, after 4 weeks of being in my own home, everything is ticking along nice and easy. Benny loves the place, and Audrey the tabby cat takes great joy in killing geckos, green legged winged creatures, moths and cockroaches, which I am most grateful for.
I feel truly blessed to have such wonderful people in my life, near and far. I send you all my love whenever you pop into my mind, which I'm sure you feel as a little flutter in your heart :)
Now back to the 90 Day Game Plan, and what prompted this blog! Dec 1 - Feb 28 is 90 days exactly. I really liked this concept as it's a short enough time frame to keep you focused, but long enough to really be able to achieve something. I sat down with a pint at the Rattle n Hum on the Esplanade and started writing.
What do I want to achieve over the next 90 days?
Where do I want to be by Feb 28?
What do I know for sure? (I often ask myself this question to bring back to the reality of any situation)
That last question really struck me. My first instinct was that we don't know anything for sure, and my reaction demonstrated how delicate life is. Anything can happen, in the blink of an eye. Would I still be in the same job? Would I still be in Cairns? Would I still be in good health? But then I understood a key factor. We have so little control over outside influences, but we have all the control within ourselves, and our reactions. I can control what goes on within myself, so that is a better question.
What do I know for sure that I can control within myself over the next 90 days, and what do I want to achieve?
Trusting my intuitions. Thinking before talking. Finding activities to satisfy my inner child. Take a little holiday staycation in December to wind down after a stressful year. Book and pay off my Hawaii/Canada holiday next September by Feb 28. Question my thoughts. Support others. Be generous with my time and love. Cleanse and detoxify. Buy that Louis Vuitton belt I've been eyeing up. On Feb 28th, I'll buy that belt. Now to make the game plan. Plan, focus, and have fun with it. It comes down to clear direction, hard work, determination, and the confidence and trust in myself to know that I can do it. Work out the "how".
Goals are exciting. Achieving them and doing them well is exciting and so motivational. Having good people around you to share in the fun is exciting. The idea that anything can happen, is exciting.
I've been going through a really transformative period (lots of ups and downs!) the last couple years, and I feel like it's finally all starting to come together. It's hard to explain the shift from feeling uncertain, unsatisfied, and unsure, to being confident, secure and certain, but when it happens, you feel it. You recognize the good things in your life and focus more on those, rather than the things that upset you. I feel more at peace. I have been taking a step back almost daily and reflecting on how far I've come, and feel like my hard work is finally paying off. Buying my unit a month ago seemed like such a necessity and logical decision, that I don't think I give myself enough credit for what a milestone it was. I've had a few milestones this year, and hope to hit a few more next year. It's amazing how things come together with a little hard work, good intentions and a clear path.
It's hard for me to describe how it feels to finally have my own space and be on my own. I realized after just a few weeks of being in my unit, how perfectly happy and content I am here by myself. This is such a revelation for me because I have always wanted a man to chum around with, be my partner, enjoy life together. But it seems, I can do that within myself now (and with Benny!).
I set a goal a year ago when I first started in my current role of Car Care Specialist at Irelands, of being #1 in Queensland. After 11mths I achieved that goal. I set a goal earlier this year to buy a real, genuine, new Louis Vuitton handbag, and set the bag as a reward. I picked the date to purchase, put money aside every week, and bought the handbag in June. There was a large outlay in money, however the satisfaction I get out of this bag everyday is completely worth it. The bag (Soffi) signifies financial freedom, class, self worth, and demonstrates how far I've come. I never thought I'd buy a Louis Vuitton bag even though it's been on my wish list for years. Buying that bag was a turning point for me in my life. It has shown me what I can achieve.
A year ago, I went to one of my colleagues and mentors looking for guidance in choosing the right path, and searching for answers to mend my discontented heart. I didn't understand why I couldn't just get on and deal with life. Everything was perfectly fine, but I wasn't content. I so desperately wanted to be content. I was also worried about my retirement, setting myself up for the future. Buying a house, having money in the bank, etc. He helped me put together a weekly budget that I still use every week, and showed me that I could easily save up enough for a deposit in a year to buy a house. The concept seemed so foreign to me - owning property in Australia, holy shit! I wavered, went back and forth, but eventually by April this year I knew I had to get my own place - either to rent or buy. I scoured the market, checking every rental property and home for sale for months, till the perfect unit came available - and a little less than I was looking to spend! 10 months after making that budget, I had signed the contract to my new unit. Buying a home is not for the faint of heart - it was a very stressful experience. However, after 4 weeks of being in my own home, everything is ticking along nice and easy. Benny loves the place, and Audrey the tabby cat takes great joy in killing geckos, green legged winged creatures, moths and cockroaches, which I am most grateful for.
I feel truly blessed to have such wonderful people in my life, near and far. I send you all my love whenever you pop into my mind, which I'm sure you feel as a little flutter in your heart :)
Now back to the 90 Day Game Plan, and what prompted this blog! Dec 1 - Feb 28 is 90 days exactly. I really liked this concept as it's a short enough time frame to keep you focused, but long enough to really be able to achieve something. I sat down with a pint at the Rattle n Hum on the Esplanade and started writing.
What do I want to achieve over the next 90 days?
Where do I want to be by Feb 28?
What do I know for sure? (I often ask myself this question to bring back to the reality of any situation)
That last question really struck me. My first instinct was that we don't know anything for sure, and my reaction demonstrated how delicate life is. Anything can happen, in the blink of an eye. Would I still be in the same job? Would I still be in Cairns? Would I still be in good health? But then I understood a key factor. We have so little control over outside influences, but we have all the control within ourselves, and our reactions. I can control what goes on within myself, so that is a better question.
What do I know for sure that I can control within myself over the next 90 days, and what do I want to achieve?
Trusting my intuitions. Thinking before talking. Finding activities to satisfy my inner child. Take a little holiday staycation in December to wind down after a stressful year. Book and pay off my Hawaii/Canada holiday next September by Feb 28. Question my thoughts. Support others. Be generous with my time and love. Cleanse and detoxify. Buy that Louis Vuitton belt I've been eyeing up. On Feb 28th, I'll buy that belt. Now to make the game plan. Plan, focus, and have fun with it. It comes down to clear direction, hard work, determination, and the confidence and trust in myself to know that I can do it. Work out the "how".
Goals are exciting. Achieving them and doing them well is exciting and so motivational. Having good people around you to share in the fun is exciting. The idea that anything can happen, is exciting.
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