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I said goodbye to Andrew today. I knew this would be the hardest off all of the goodbyes, but you can't fully prepare for the moments. He is such a special man. Over the past weeks I've been trying to prepare myself for this day in the hopes of making it less painful and more matter of fact. But of course, it's near impossible to be matter of fact about leaving a loved one. I wrote him a letter a few weeks ago telling him how great he is and trying to give myself closure and to ease the pain of our final goodbye. I suppose it helped over the past few weeks but had no effect today. Today I felt heart ache. Heart break. The kind of feeling you only feel when you are losing someone close to your heart. I don't know if I've ever felt the feeling before, but I made mental note of it in the hopes of never forgetting something so precious. The best way I can describe it is that it feels like a bird is in your chest trying to open and spread it's wings but...
lol how do you find these things! I thought she was a young boy of 15. Nope! But cool cover though!
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